These feelings were much easier to ignore at my high school where the male population was non-existent and the lone attractive male teacher would only be enough to garner a mildly excited whisper amongst the womenfolk. Sure some of the lucky girls at school would talk about their boyfriends at times but they were rare and fleeting and easy to ignore when I consoled myself that I would have my own man-friend in college. It is weird actively knowing what sex is and wanting it to happen to you and then feeling guilty that you want it but still feeling, dare I say it, rather amorous anyway I said it! But now, I want to climb that rock. Quite frankly any rock, well no, maybe more like a nice slim rock with flat rocky abs and a good personality. I am filled with an odd sense of shock and jealousy when I find out that the people next to me have engaged in coital interactions.

I can accept a pity f. We say we love each other and belong to each other. Last week she lost her virginity. When she told me I was shocked at how nauseous and disappointed I felt.

Your question came in well before COVID was on the horizon, but ever since it reared its virus-y head, a LOT of people are finding themselves in your situation. If someone experiences sexual attraction or desire , there is going to be a point in their lives where they feel sexual urges they can't act on. In your case, you've set boundaries for yourself about when you want to have sex. Others may not have a sexual partner ; some might be in a long distance relationship , or some might be in the mood when their partner so isn't. Or, as might be the case right now, a partner might nearby but observing social distancing guidelines which, as of this writing, are to only be sexual with partners you were already living with.